bc is like hogwarts.

and i am like hermione, so far. the inability to relax, the large orange cat, and the crazy hair are all pretty accurate. i'm waiting for the day the tide turns and i become neville. i already have the plants.

really, though, it's almost uncanny. there's a view of the stadium that you get walking from the student center to the library that is a dead ringer for the quidditch pitch, and the library where i study could be the great hall. if you went to lewis & clark, imagine the law library, but everyone's studying in a castle instead of cubicles. it's pretty rad, but i also know that the less i talk to people the more i start to believe in things like magic, so tomorrow i'm going to a barbecue to try and keep myself grounded before i start believing in vampires and carrying a stake "just in case" again.

today i took the train to school for the first time. that was ok, but even though i live pretty close to school and it's not a long walk to the train station, it still seemed like it took an inordinately long time to get there. i can't wait until it snows and it takes me half an hour just to walk to the train in my stupid boots.

i spent a lot of time in the library today. i sat down and it felt like i had never left school at all, which is pretty cool in some ways and horrible in others. it was nice to know that i can get back into the routine pretty easily, and that even though it's a completely different library it still imbues me with some pretty fantastic anxiety. also, the bathroom tile is the same as in the library at lewis & clark. but, jake is not there, and jake was pretty much a fixture in terms of the time i spent at the library, and that is hard. but who needs friends when i can just be really nervous all by myself?

update: i met with my advisor today and told her about my unnerving level of comfort with being back in an academic library. she called me a "nerd at heart." i am ambivalent about that, and i don't mean apathetic.