yesterday boston was san francisco. today, it's portland.

i'm in pretty serious denial that i live too far away from home to drive back in a day if i really need to. i've never actually lived this far away from california, and i never realized how strong the pull of home could be. boston's been cool so far, but i'm starting to hate it a little bit because it's not home. portland was never like this. i can't put my finger on the difference - sure, the accents and footwear are different, but most people in san francisco are stuck in the 90's just like people in boston and it's only different enough be funny. but there are other more serious differences that are really affecting me, and if i could just figure out what they are i could pretend they don't exist.

let's add cat power and elliot smith to the "feelings" list. they're pretty much givens, but it's important to be clear and comprehensive when coming up with things one isn't supposed to do.